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Members of the Fanda Eagles Jury:

In this matter I wish to represent myself.

I stand before thee accused of vile actions, the penalty of which is eternal damnation according to my accusor. My vile actions include exposing the truth about "a few bad men" in NTM and thereby casting dispersion on the "excellent work" of the aforementioned organisation and it's many "righteous men", who I have not given the right of reply.

This accusation comes in the form of a letter received from a "righteous man" who is biologically related to me, but in reality I wish to divorce myself from.

I wish to refute the claim that I have not offered any right of reply, as evidenced by my participation in this open forum, to which all are welcome to submit their viewpoint. I also wish to reiterate my claim that the child abuse scandal, of which I have made an effort to expose, was not just the result of a "few misguided men", but an International disgrace perpetrated by dozens of men (and a few women) and these acts were in fact Criminal Acts, that should have been dealt with by a court of law, not covered up!

I also wish to put before my learned friends of the jury, that the offer to reconcile to my biological father, if only I meet him on his terms and do not discuss any of his past or my experiences as a child, is fraudulent and unacceptable in the extreme. This offer is paramount to the sacrifice of my own honesty to protect those that I have tried so hard to bring to justice and the denial of my fellow MKs the justice they deserve, nay cry out for!

My dear members of the jury, I say unto thee, that I am not the guilty party, for I have acted with noble intentions and although my methods are possibly not considered conventional, this is hardly a crime, more a reason to celebrate the diversity of the human race. Look at my track record: I have not raped, molested, lied, covered up, beaten or any other such "sin". Yet my accusor offers me the chance of reconcilliation if I too close a blind eye to these offences committed by his "friends and associates".

Members of the jury, that is my defence. A human being, who in his endeavour to procure the truth in these matters has stood on the toes of some who should be in the dock.

I rest my case.

Your arguments are clear and sensible, sir.

I cannot imagine that anything your accuser could have to say would convince a jury of sane citizens.

But then, I confess I am more than a little biased.

Just stick with the truth, Befused.
Don't get off the track.
(Not that we think you will!)
You may get kicked around and end up where it is not pleasant.
But when you look about---THERE are the men of truth all around you!
Good fellowship and a job well done.
Your bruises do heal.
We all have a responsibility to stay the course.
For the others.

Vile actions: NOT GUILTY
Exposing the truth: GUILTY
Not giving right of reply: NOT GUILTY
Refusal to reconcile: NOT GUILTY by reason of fraudulent terms

3 counts NOT GUILTY
1 count GUILTY

"...the truth will set you free." ~Jesus the righteous Judge

Deserving of eternal damnation, or Freedom?

Out of the Judge's own mouth: freedom

If I ever get accused of something I didn't do I want Bemused as my defense solicitor. Full stop.

Even if I did do it I want Bemused on my side. I say not guilty.

Sounds like my situation, Thanks Bemused

I did send an email to my dad to clear up any misgivings and he was grascious and loving as always, reminding me that he and mom did step in and defend we kids numerous times. Apparently his heart is hurting for both sides and he assured me that he holds no anymosity towards those of us who have spoken up. I so wish your father would confess to you and beg forgiveness for his hard,unrelenting heart. I believe he will regret it one day, when it is too late. My heart goes out to you! I admire and respect your strength and dedication to the cause. I am more easily defeated and grow weary quickly, frustrated that the problem has not been fixed. It is my goal to remain strong until the end and fight the fight. I look to you for quidance because I admit my weakness is to be more of a follower than a leader. "I'm broken, too emotional ! My story does include abuse but from a student who also was abused and the cycle repeated. This not near as damaging as teacher to student abuse but non the less changed every aspect of my life and all the poor decisions I made along the way! I confronted my abuser as an adult. literally demanded an apology and received one although he initially stated "it meant nothing, it happened to me so I did it to you! I still carry the shame and the distortment of life and resulting dysfunctionality of my life. Someone told me that I used my job as a "god" because I work so much but only one who has suffered abuse knows it is a coping skill of not having to sit alone too long with your painful, agonizing thoughts. I have come along way but often distance myself from others After the break up of my 31 year marraige I have dated but not found a soulmate such as you have in JO. My two sons are awesome and have been my sanity! I have serious doubts that I could be a perfect mate to any one at this time): In conclusion, thanks for being a friend!

Thank you for your kind words.

To put into words your feelings, worries, concerns takes courage and to put them before the world in an open forum is most appreciated. I think most of us have doubts about our sanity at times, after all we are a small group of MKs within a small group of MKs, when taking into account how many people populate our planet.

And you've had the courage to communicate with your father, excellent. I'm sure you used more tact than I managed to conjure up. Keep the lines of communication open.

To repeat the cycle of abuse because one was abused, is plain cowardice. I look at how I was treated and make a determined effort to never go down that road. An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth way of looking at the world, only makes for a world of one eyed, toothless citizens.

Remain strong, sometimes the road seems never ending, but the company is good on the journey.

Thank you, breakingthesilence, for your courage!
I hope that breaking your silence will be a new beginning for you.....
....Of healing that is complete.
Walk along with us.
We have gone up hill and down.
Our children, too, accept us and our wrong decisions, now admitted.
We can't change the past.
But we can admit it and deal with it.
Together.
Our healing as a family is not done yet.
But to be in progress is a victory too.
We are on the way somewhere.
To a place that is better.