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Oops nearly forgot.

Anyone else noticed anything interesting about the current Pope? His official name is of course Pope Benedict XVI, but his birth name is Joseph Aloisius Ratzinger.
Now look at the surname, bit of a mouthfull, so what are the chances it is shortened to, ummmmmm lets see, Raz

Oh my!

Hush, Bemused, you're blowing my cover!!!

Oops sorry your Emients, forgot you was under the covers.

Don't worry, no one ever reads these forums, so your secret is safe with me

P.s. How is things in Rome?

Pope Raz will be pleased to meet you at the conference. May I kiss your ring.

Do not forget to bring your 'hat' and 'ring' to the MK Safety Net conference Raz!

Struggling with a demon sorts this morning....and I could use some Spiritual wisdom, some WHY? and even some WTF do you want me to take the dude out for you?

I have always accepted the burden and even reasoned away all of the torture he has put me through for 15 years. The counterpart to me in my three children and a true Demon soul that quite frankly I am again worried about my life at times as his anger towards me and drive to destroy me and anything I hold dear INCLUDING my own daughter, Sara...the soon to be Mom.

God I guess felt I needed to get this one out this morning as I have been crying "in a corner" for a half an hour frozen in sadness of the reason behind my daughter's own struggles lately with me.

He is not a Christian and I knew that when I married him. DUMBEST rebellious act I EVER did piss the parents off...this one still biting me in the a$@ after 21 years!!

He is so evil towards me that you wouldn't believe me if I told you that story of me. He encourages Sara to stay away from me. He treats her as some kind of "girlfriend" telling her every adult and wicked thing about me HER MOM has since she was 5. He judges her, refuses her as his daughter when he can't control her (literally dropping her off at my home when she was 16 saying he didn't want my twin....she just like I was damaged. As recent as the announcement of her pregnancy he had been sending her texts saying how ashamed he was of her. She would end up on the streets as a single mom and on welfare because she was stupid for getting pregnant....and of course always the last line to leave her with...just like your MOTHER.

Those are just a tiny snippet into the world of Mr. Wonderful himself (He is a car guy....from the wrong side of the tracks and from a single mom on welfare himself) He was tall dark and handsome when I met him and the worst but best predator of my life since RJ.

I am so angry, mad, raging, wanting to scream, wanting him to pay, wanting him to fall into the pit of hell ASAP, wanting him to be made into a clown in public for all the things he has shamed me with falsely in three yes THREE custody battles all riddled with lies and recently discovered by me that the Commissioner , his attorney and the other attorney/Guardian A Litem in my county are corrupt. OH GEEE surprise another bunch of corrupt power hungry evil hearts in position to destroy lives and control traumas. Add that one to my list of items to correct in my life for my GIRLS!

So please any spiritual guidance would help... think of me as a newborn with no knowledge, experience or feeling of the FATHER to child love, responsibility with GOD and if Father's put their children first and above their own needs so they can be ok...I am a dummy in this area. HA that could be why I made THE BIGGEST mistake in a partner...I would have been better off marrying Fidel Castro. At Least that dude loves his kids....

Any wise words of let's take him out feelings and wishes of which we wouldn't do because we are good kids welcome also.

Back to crying...this is how I start to release my pain and then work towards healing. This one is unbearable. Almost as traumatic as what RJ did to me and to my family. I am deep in prayer and making sure I remember God is carrying me right now and I keep looking....yup he is.

DEAR GOD,
Please let me see why in this situation and help me to know what to do and how to help my daughter. I don't know how right now? I don't know how to have a relationship with any man and how am I too help in my daughter's pain, trauma and tragedy in her own father/daughter relationship when I still can't see my own father looking at me when he speaks to me. Lord guide me and carry me. Amen

Struggling with a demon sorts this morning....and I could use some Spiritual wisdom, some WHY? and even some WTF do you want me to take the dude out for you?

I have always accepted the burden and even reasoned away all of the torture he has put me through for 15 years. The counterpart to me in my three children and a true Demon soul that quite frankly I am again worried about my life at times as his anger towards me and drive to destroy me and anything I hold dear INCLUDING my own daughter, Sara...the soon to be Mom.

God I guess felt I needed to get this one out this morning as I have been crying "in a corner" for a half an hour frozen in sadness of the reason behind my daughter's own struggles lately with me.

He is not a Christian and I knew that when I married him. DUMBEST rebellious act I EVER did piss the parents off...this one still biting me in the a$@ after 21 years!!

He is so evil towards me that you wouldn't believe me if I told you that story of me. He encourages Sara to stay away from me. He treats her as some kind of "girlfriend" telling her every adult and wicked thing about me HER MOM has since she was 5. He judges her, refuses her as his daughter when he can't control her (literally dropping her off at my home when she was 16 saying he didn't want my twin....she just like I was damaged. As recent as the announcement of her pregnancy he had been sending her texts saying how ashamed he was of her. She would end up on the streets as a single mom and on welfare because she was stupid for getting pregnant....and of course always the last line to leave her with...just like your MOTHER.

Those are just a tiny snippet into the world of Mr. Wonderful himself (He is a car guy....from the wrong side of the tracks and from a single mom on welfare himself) He was tall dark and handsome when I met him and the worst but best predator of my life since RJ.

I am so angry, mad, raging, wanting to scream, wanting him to pay, wanting him to fall into the pit of hell ASAP, wanting him to be made into a clown in public for all the things he has shamed me with falsely in three yes THREE custody battles all riddled with lies and recently discovered by me that the Commissioner , his attorney and the other attorney/Guardian A Litem in my county are corrupt. OH GEEE surprise another bunch of corrupt power hungry evil hearts in position to destroy lives and control traumas. Add that one to my list of items to correct in my life for my GIRLS!

So please any spiritual guidance would help... think of me as a newborn with no knowledge, experience or feeling of the FATHER to child love, responsibility with GOD and if Father's put their children first and above their own needs so they can be ok...I am a dummy in this area. HA that could be why I made THE BIGGEST mistake in a partner...I would have been better off marrying Fidel Castro. At Least that dude loves his kids....

Any wise words of let's take him out feelings and wishes of which we wouldn't do because we are good kids welcome also.

Back to crying...this is how I start to release my pain and then work towards healing. This one is unbearable. Almost as traumatic as what RJ did to me and to my family. I am deep in prayer and making sure I remember God is carrying me right now and I keep looking....yup he is.

DEAR GOD,
Please let me see why in this situation and help me to know what to do and how to help my daughter. I don't know how right now? I don't know how to have a relationship with any man and how am I too help in my daughter's pain, trauma and tragedy in her own father/daughter relationship when I still can't see my own father looking at me when he speaks to me. Lord guide me and carry me. Amen

mk chame I am so sorry. Have no answers just sorrow for you. Do know that you are loved. You are valuable regardless of the past. Do not let another person tell you what you are. Look inside you are strong you have survived. Praying for you to be comforted.