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We all need to start contacting the attorney in Florida. He is representing Jane Doe MK (NTM). I want our story heard by the public. When I think of the help and repair I could have gotten if NTM hadn't hidden it for over 20 years I become enraged.

My health is at a life or death situation. Tell me how my children deserve that??? NTM destroyed me, my family and it has carried over to my children and the many past loved ones in my life. US Dept of Justice owes me one and I intend to collect!!

It is a high stakes game played against organisations who have much to keep out of the public eye. If to much scandal leaks out and is widely publisized, then the money supply starts to dry up and that won't be taken lying down.

Should NTM close down? my gut feeling is yes. The mess from the past is enormous, the way it was handled was disgraceful, what is happening now is dubious and there is no gaurantee at all that nothing has changed and that in 20 years time there won't be another generation of MKs with very similar problems.

But then if NTM did close down, imagine the almighty scrap over the assets. The stampede would be amazing, but thats another subject for discussion some other time.

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I need a lot of prayer. I finally saw a doctor. We met for 3 hours. I am dying! All my life I wanted to die so I could escape the pain of my abuse and abusers. Now I am fighting for my life. And it is a fight I don't know if I can do. I am literally shutting down. My body. I am not functioning as I should and it is causing toxins to be released in my body and take over.

I am scared, sad and alone. NTM is supposed to pay for my doctors. I didn't hear back from Tibbey in time so I assumed my parents would front the money for a day or two until Tibby could release funds. At 5:30 PM last night I could not get my mother to respond my requests to help so I didn't leave a professional in a position of non payment for here services. My boyfriend went to both of my parents saying that I needed to hear from them and it was an emergency. They both replied they were to busy and my father shook his head saying NO NO we won't be doing anything.

I am dying and again I feel so unloved. A lot of my issues stem from the sexual abuse but they have escalated from horrific medical neglect from 10 yrs of age to 17 yrs of age when I left my family for college. My IBS is so severe I am not digesting food. My body is full of yeast which is causing inflamation, amino acid not breaking down and potential blindness in my left eye and no hearing in my left ear. I suffered from severe UTIs as a girl but my mother thought it was because I was a slut so she didn't take me to a doctor. It got so severe I couldn't walk and the doctor wanted to take one of my kidneys which was damaged beyond repair. My mother would have no part of me losing an organ and her to be blamed so it was left in. I had a severe ear ache when I came home from Panama. My mother didn't believe my pleas of pain. The ear drum exploded and I lose hearing in my ear. My current doctor asked why no one ever stepped in for me. I said I don't know.

I am so sad. So very sad that now I have to fight for my life. I have such a high threshold to physical pain from years of having to keep quiet when I was in so much pain I would scream out to God to make it stop.

I need a dentist ASAP because the bacteria is taking over my mouth. I am so scared. I now can't eat much of any foods to deal with the attack inside my body. So I fear I won't eat as I live with my parents and they will not switch food or provide me with the certain foods I need.

I need to move immediately as my mother's abuse is literally killing me. I have no resources to be able to move.

PLEASE pray for me. I don't normally ask for prayer chains for myself as I am not used to feeling I am worthy of prayer. Could you please spread the word to the other Eagles today. I am heading to my ex mother in laws to work and then trying to call more doctors, deal with Tibby and get funds for the many supplements I need to take ASAP to stop my body from shutting down or my brain to just stop.

I will also be trying to figure out how to prepare a will and who I would even ask to make sure my wishes are followed for my girls.

Oh I need to cry. And oh how I need to get away from my parents. I don't understand why they don't love me. What did I do?? All I ever wanted was to be loved and have my parents cherish me as I cherish my girls. They don't, haven't and never will. Another doctor told me this yesterday. I am facing that demon. But it is the saddest hurt I have ever felt.

You can share this on the discussion topics. I am going to hide behind my music today and think happy thoughts of my girls while I pray for an advocate to help me organize all this stuff and stay safe in my living environment.

Thanks for letting me get it all out by emailing me so I could email back.

CONCRETE ANGEL by Martina McBride. That is my life's theme song. And so sad that my daughter's even pointed that out one Mother's Day.

MK Chame (I so love all my Fanda friends.....to know people care if worth a thousand treasures to me)

WHAT CAN WE DO???
CAN GRACE HELP OR POINT US TO HELP???

mk chame, we are SO glad you found us!
Yes, there is love here-----
And what practical help?
Help! Help! Help!

I am praying for you.
You are worthy of all the prayers anyone can offer!

Bemused - did you send that email??

I am txt msg-ing PII...
And I sent the above 'printed by permission' to Anne...

mk chame:

We are praying for you and hoping that you will feel our love and our support.

Your pain is heart wrenching. I wish I could make it all better.

I hope it helps to know that YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

My heart bleeds, I feel helpless. Does mk chame live in the States? We are living in a day of medical miracles. I personally know this, as I got an aorta valve replacement in March and my husband got a pacemaker in February. This happened to 2 people that thought they were the picture of health, no meds, no doctors up until this point. This person needs help, her parents are negligent. What parent wouldn't give their life for their child, even their grandchild? I have 2 siblings who both gave their kidney to their child, this is very normal but this story is very sad. Full stop.

I am overwhelmed by the love I feel from all of you. It is an unknown territory for me! I have always just taken the lack of care as proof th and at I am not worth it. Even believing maybe God did think I was a mistake and handing me over to the devil. I fight that every second of my life. The many years of cutting was because I couldn't stand my own skin I was in. The years of scrubbing my body raw to get the "dirt" off me. The years of throwing up to get the slut ut of me and to be perfect and beautiful. The years of scrlubbing my home with a toothbrush and constantly staging my home as a retail store for beauty and warmth. The countless hours spent getting edcations, degrees, certificates, the many men I have given so much money too in order to keep them around and tell me they loved me. The year I spent going to the most dangerous places to get drugs and try to kill myself by numbing to an overdose. All to somehow feel worth love and worthy of life. Or as in my drug attempt to die and let them all know they won...just to finally plea.se them.

And now all of it is crashing down on me. I weep as I realize how sadly pathetic it all is. I have lived a lifetime of hut and emptiness. I want to LIVE! Literally and symbolically. I am ready to live. Ready to be reborn and know life. My granddaughter who is coming into this world is what gave me the strength to finally face these demons and get them out. She was conceived the day my brother's love of his life and mother to my nephews took her life for the very tsame reasons I did all the things above. It opened my eyes and I felt her and feel her now pushing me to get e