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Ladies and Gentlemen, this is your Captain speaking. You may have noticed a little turbulence in the last section of our flight, this is due to technical difficulties with some of the baggage we have stowed and the courageous efforts of several passengers getting to the bottom of the problem.
You will notice the seatbelt sign is currently on, might I suggest that you remain seated, put your tray table away and hug the stranger in the seat next to you. Please make sure all sharp items and items that go bang are stowed safely in the locker above you.
We are still on course to Justiceville, with an ETA to be determined.

In the meantime, please sit back relax, help yourself to the complimentary flight magazine. And in case of emergency . . .

......the Red Baron will be your inflight entertainment. Our cure for many an Emergency. Take a load off, get comfortable. Drinks trolley will be around shortly. Enjoy

Bemused, your humor is appreciated.

I do understand hurt, MK. And I am very sad for you; that you've had to carry that burden. It is a very hard thing!

My question is, what is considered investigative abuse. I would venture to say that growing up in a boarding school all of us dealt with a lot of hurt. We did not live in our own homes or with our own parents. We were basically taught to figure out how to survive on our own. It was a very lonely world! It was also a known fact that staff had favorites and bummer for you if you weren't one of them. There were times that I was extremely hurt by people, both staff and students, and I wished that I had said something. My hurt, though, pales in comparison to siblings who have been sexually abused and physically abused. I am so angry for what they had to endure! And I want those messed up people, who did that to them, to be stopped from doing that to others.

As an adult I've realized how weak we are on our own. Without God's forgiveness and His strength I cringe to think of who I would be. My prayer is for peace; God's amazing, incomprehensible peace. Without it we carry so much baggage. It scares me how easy it is to become bitter and I do not want that! To grow and learn and feel safe with all of you, that would make visiting this site worth it. This investigation will be able to bring some closure to horrible abuses but ultimately we have to hand it over to God; and to keep handing it over. Every. Single. Time. The. Pain. Crops. Up.

My Dear Sadforsomany, I understand where you are coming from. The isolation, the staff playing favourites, that too was my childhood, but with one interesting twist. While dorm kids went home to loving parents, I stayed on base with the 2 monsters who made my life hell, year in year out (my mother was never a monster, just to make that clear, it was my father and the school principal). My father has played favourites since he entered NTM, because I questioned what was happening around me, he used other peoples kids in his power games.

Several days ago I met another NTM MK, the first time in 10 years I'd done so (I have two sisters, but we don't discuss much of our past, on the infrequent occassions we meet). We talked extensively and discovered our journeys had some striking similariteis, but both our journeys had pretty much ended positively. And then we laughed together, at how mad, bad, sad it all was and it felt good to finally laugh with someone else who'd been there done that.
Perhaps the isolation of being at the bottom of the globe has done me some favours, in being able to completely divorce myself from the thinking of NTM, clear my foggy mind and then come back with fresh eyes and sort out my remaining baggage. Perhaps my genetic code is such that I've inherited coping skills. Or perhaps the recent earthquakes and the devastation lying around me have put into perspective a little more what life is really about. Probably a combination of the three and the very kind caring support I have found from fellow MKs (and supporters) on this site.

So some of us got a little heated in the last 48 hours, but in the grand scheme of things, we are still all aboard our aircraft of hope, still flying in the same direction and hopefully no one has put on their parachute and jumped out (not recommended and never take the one that says "no strings attached ), or worse still been pushed out.

Oh look the drinks trolley is coming down the aisle, make mine a large non alcoholic champagne, I think I'm going to need it shortly.

I am an outsider looking in. Please stay the course, your help to each other is just amazing! I am dealing with a victim of a pedophile from another mission organization and when there is no documentation on the abuse it becomes very hard for the abused, easy for the abuser. However, rarely is there only one victim and when that brave one comes forward that just might bring the others out. Full stop.

We've done amazingly well here without many rules. It takes a rare group that can self govern and still retain credibility like this one has. Unfortunately not everything is black and white.

Censorship is not the issue here, and no one is accusing anyone of lying. The simple truth is telling a story of abuse is different than posting a name on a list of abusers. Because this is a gray area I would suggest you start a thread and tell us your story. This will be good practice going forward, as any investigator will ask for stories of abuse, they will not stop at a name.

Dear MK,
I'm truly sorry for any distress I've caused you. I think it was very brave of you to come forward and expose abuse that has occurred. I am so sad for you and all the others who had such horrible and sick experiences at Tambo and the other schools. I was there with my children and they still had some things happen to them that were so wrong. As I said before, when I first came to Bolivia, I was very naive and really thought I was about to experience a heaven like fellowship with the other missionaries who I thought must be spiritual giants. Instead, it was a very hard "click" to be a part of and would have been very lonely except for all the wonderful children at Tambo who I loved very much.

Ladies and Gentlemen, this is your captain speaking again. Thank you for your patience while we negotiated the turbulence up at crusing altitude. The seat belt sign is now off, please feel free to wander around the cabin and introduce your selves to others on Fanda Eagles flight 007 headed for Justiceville.
Our inflight entertainment channels are as follow:

The Red Barren Comedy Show on The Red Barren Channel
The Crime Channel features "Who done what"
Bemused will be previewing his documentary "How to air your dirty laundry internationally"
and
Radioshack has a lovely action adventure film, "How to turn a Magpie into a Homeing
Pigeon, with nasty habits"

Thats all from the flight dock at da momen, so spit beck an enjoys your fight. Oops camputa error. . .

Thank you, MK, for hanging in there with us through that turbulence, and for giving us more information. I know that wasn't easy.

During the past few days I have asked myself how I think I would respond, were I to suddenly see my own name listed here by an MK whom I had wounded. I know it would be excruciatingly painful. I hope my pain would be because of how I'd hurt a child, not because the world would now see my name listed among other child abusers. I wince when I say I'm afraid the embarrassment factor would be a pretty huge part of my reaction.

If I have truly been walking with God through life, abiding in Christ, and understanding that I am totally and undeservedly forgiven through Him, then I submit that I should not crumble when someone points out a time that I have hurt them. Could I have enough trust in my Faithful God that I would even welcome the discovery of ways that I had harmed others, so I might have the opportunity to acknowledge my humanity, repent of my errors, and seek forgiveness for my cruelty and insensitivity?

"The way up is down." Experience has taught me that when I humble myself and throw my pitiful, always-bungling self at the foot of the cross, then when I raise my tear-filled eyes, I find not only grace and mercy flowing from the Almighty One, but I also see compassion in the faces of my fellow-travelers, who hold out their arms to raise me up, embrace and forgive me.

Humility and repentance.

That's the way home.

I`m relieved that fellow mks are not listed. I`m sure my name would be at the top of the list.