I added a "hello" note after that one, but then a kid interrupted me, as they usually seem to do, and I apparently didn't publish it!
I don't stalk this site much, so someone told me about the post from "Stan," and I came to check it out. I have so many opposing thoughts to his note, but there really isn't a point in trying to change a set mind. Without knowing us or trying to get to know us, he has cast a net of judgment. When you're open to having a dialogue, such as Paul has done , I'll be happy to write to you, Stan.
There has been a lot more to each of these stories than we would post in a public forum; I hope the Stans understand this.
It has been one year since I posted about Gary Earl. I have never gone through a year so mentally and emotionally tough. It has taken a toll. Though there was a lot of verbal support (er, "verbal" in the modern e-verbal sense) in the beginning months, I've felt alone in my battle for most of the year. I really went out on a limb and the others who were at Numonohi cheered me on, but left me there. There hasn't been anyone else stepping forward ...I get that we all have our own time frame ...my point is only an explanation of why I'm so so so drained.
I feel like I am in, and have been in, the middle of a spiritual battle, good vs. evil, and I was totally unprepared and ill-equipped for it. In the beginning months, I would despair just as someone wrote me to say they're praying for me, or to offer encouragement. Those notes always boosted me up, and I'm so grateful for them. If you ever feel a prodding to write someone an encouraging note, do it.
When things get tough, I "nest." I focus on the people God literally handed to me - my children and also my husband. With three teenagers and a preteen, this is a great time to nest! So that's where I've been for the last several months, with headphones on and worship music blaring!
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