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Journey,

"fear of not being perfect. But it went deeper than that - the fear of what would happen if I wasn't perfect. Any guesses? Abandonment, esp. emotional abandonment. What if I turn out to be a huge disappointment to the people I love most? "

I struggle with this on a daily basis. I am always trying to please everyone around me, I am an overachiever at work, I try and be the perfect wife and mother. I often neglect my own needs and wants to accomodate others. It stresses me out and causes me anxiety when I feel like I am letting people down. I feel guilty and selfish if I do anything or take time for myself and I don't feel as if I am worth it. I am not sure how to handle it or achieve a healthy balance, I am still a work in progress.

JJ

Thank you for all the reading material suggestions. Keep them coming. Now to just load up the Kindle! ; )

JJ,
The good news is that you are God's work in progress. He thinks you are worth it.

--Journey

Who I Am in Christ by Neil T. Anderson (a devotional)

Love Wins by Rob Bell (just finished it and loved it!)

The Shack by Wm. Paul Young (MK molested by the tribe wrote this novel about the death of innocence, disappointment and the love of God)

I also loved The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning! Great read.

The Missionary Myth by Vivian Palmer Harvey (also an MK, who now works with Native Americans)