I'm reading here too, and feel much the same way as OT. I've struggled much to understand why some continue on with NTM. To make it personal, my dad was born into NTM and doesn't know anything different. NTM is family to him in a way not even I can completely understand. He bubbles over with joy when he is back in Brasil. It is one of the reasons I don't complain when he is eager to get back to it.
However, he walks closely enough with the LORD to know when something is not right, and he makes it known in his own unique way. I'm thankful for that, because if that weren't true...if I didn't know how sickened my parents are by the abuse and the cover-ups...if I wasn't sure that they support each of us whole-heartedly in our quest for justice and healing...then it would break my heart to have them leave me to continue to serve under NTM, as they did just this week. I want to believe there are more like him, who love "the work," and understand that God can use simple people to do extraordinary things despite all the mess this world is in!
My dad wrote something to be posted here several months ago, but it never made it. He is computer illiterate, and I hope to track down what he wrote and post it someday soon. Somewhere between recovering from surgery, visiting supporting churches and meeting the needs of his kids, it got lost.
Thank you, OT, and Raz for sharing your hearts. Yes, NTM is part of us--and maybe that is why all this hurts so much. Thanks for finding the words to express it so well.
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