Nobikesonthesidewalk! wrote:
Re: previous post. To muse and perhaps clarify a couple of things.
1. I struggle with the riddle found in this forum. I probably won't solve it, but mowing the lawn today, a sleepless night last night, and a front porch swing brought on some thoughts. It is the fine line between justice and vengeance. A line I may have stepped over. For this I apologize. I was unable to edit that post. It is right for us to seek justice. To act justly. To love justice, for God does. It is right for us to love mercy. To seek mercy. I don't mean for those who act in unrighteousness, but for those who are oppressed or have been oppressed. I am with mr. Thornery in his desire to seek justice. I was wanting to show mercy to all those who have been sinned against. In the process, in my weak fleshly heart, a sneaky thing creeps in that takes the Godly virtue- justice- and intertwines vengeance. I probably had no right bringing a name into a forum who has already been brought to full justice. (Bringing up a name of a perpetrator who has faced the Lord himself). Vengeance is His. He will repay. To all let me just say I believe I crossed the line. Stinks that 989 people already read it and I am not technologically savvy enough to remove it before the next 989.
2. It is a crazy thing how sin scars. When we sin and when we are sinned against... it hurts. it leaves scars. Uncovering sin before the Lord is the most healing thing there is. Please all who post, and all who read. Let us be faithful in prayer. James instructs us to confess sin one to another, and pray for each other, that we may be healed. This sin was committed, and covered over in secrecy and lies. As we uncover it, let us commit to pray for each person in our memory.
3. In my story, I in no way glory in my shameful angry outrage. I indeed struggled with rage and temper for years. The Lord has brought healing and peace to my soul. Sin incites sin.
4. I love you all. Many of you are like brothers and sisters to me. Wish we could all just go rollerskating one more time on the sidewalk behind the school.
5. This world is broken. it is under a curse. This isn't the way it is suppose to be. In the deepest part of our soul... we feel it. Every broken romance reminds us or our bridegroom who will love us perfectly. Every treasured memory, glimpse of beauty pictures for us our permanent home. And every father figure will disappoint because we long for our perfect father- Who will comfort us and take us home. We don't belong here.
6. Sorry I get preachy...
Good night.