Kyle, I know it seems effing crazy. But look how hard it is for me to be accusatory. I only went to a NTM school for 2 years. I keep in touch with one friend from there. For a missionary to denounce the mission that they have bought into? Paid with their life, their identity, their children? It makes me nauseated, have sharp stomach pains at the thought of being on the field trying to make a decision like that. The mental unrest, the physical symptoms, the spiritual torture would lead them back into the familiar place of considering themselves sinning to think that way. So then, when they are at chapel, and a lovely age old hymn is sung, they repent, and make a decision like the others they have made--to stop thinking about it. To stop reading. To stop listening.
David Darks book that we talked about earlier . . .would they read it if it were sent to them?
Going crazy here with you, buddy.
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