I think your thoughts, though rambling, are quite on the mark.
In my short time with NTM (some 4 years in total) I can see the truth in what you say.
I still encounter some missionaries (with various missions) and they do have a general sense of entitlement. They certainly have a lot of holidays - to do with the fatigue of spiritual warfare I was told. It may well come as a shock if some NTM missionaries had to work in the business world as I do. Not a lot of love and kindness to go around.
Still, I got out of NTM (albeit kicked out). My husband tells me that my stubborness can get me into and out of trouble. I guess he is right on that one. I thank god he gave me a stubborn streak or I still might be there in that mission
