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For me I have had to separate and compartmentalize many different issues within. One being my own healing from the sexual abuse, then the extreme spiritual abuse laid out to be able to continue in my life for 30 some years after our family left NTM, then my own issues within my family from our experience in NTM, and finally my medical issues stemming from the incident and the continued abuse within my life and my family. That is a lot to digest and work on. I am healing Spiritually and that is the most important FOR ME. I need God to be carrying me right now. In no way does that make up for what my offender did and what may come from the investigation. If he is jailed I still do not have to forgive. That is between me and God and only me and God!

True Blood I know exactly how you feel and am here for you to vent even if in pm. My goal in sharing my story is not to blast anyone but to heal and work on prevention and awareness of not just MK abuse but ALL children that go through or could go through abuses. The damage done to me both emotionally and physically is a tragedy. I have lived a life of accepted abuses stemming from the original abuse and that is never something I will be able to forgive. I will work on that with God not in public!

That is the best short answer about forgiveness.
It is between you and God.
And you choose to give it.
No one manipulates you or controls you.

mk chame

I worked on forgiveness for a long time. Then I realized I could not fake it, could not do it, so decided it was God's problem. It is a gift that is given to us when we reach a certain stage in our healing. So don't worry about it.

But as far as forgiving an organization, it is not a person, it doesn't need forgiveness. I will fight that organization until the people leading it stop acting like the organization is a person. When the leaders start doing things the way God intended then I will support the organization.

Good, Shary!
I support you!

There are a couple of new posts on the NTM website under Historic Abuse Investigations.

http://usa.ntm.org/mission-news/52462/ihart-update

IHART UPDATE

Pat Hendrix, coordinator of IHART (Independent Abuse Response Team) recently submitted a report to the Executive Board regarding the on-going historical abuse investigation process.

Brazil: The scope of the investigation covers the fall of 1983 to the summer of 1993. At this time, nearly all individuals who have expressed a desire to provide information concerning abuse at the NTM Boarding School in Brazil have been contacted and interviewed. A few more interviews are needed to corroborate information already obtained. The review, analysis and consolidation of information is ongoing and individuals requiring interviews continue to be identified. The interviews continue and those remaining will be conducted and completed in February 2013. As various aspects of the investigation are completed, portions of the statement of findings are being completed. It is anticipated that the investigation will be completed in March 2013.

Panama: The scope of the investigation runs from 1962 – 2006. The investigative team is doing everything they can to be finished by mid to late summer 2013.

Tambo: The scope of the investigation covers 1959 – 2004 when the school run by NTM was closed. With the scope of this investigation, we expect this investigation to last two to three more years.

IHART continues to interview possible investigators. We are tentatively scheduling an orientation to take place in the next two to three months.


I think it is important, for all of us waiting to see some results, to note that this statement says that the Brazil investigation is anticipated to be completed in March. It is my observation that this is quite a different statement than the one we received a couple of weeks ago, which said, "It is anticipated that the investigation will be completed, and a final Statement of Findings submitted in March 2013.".

NTM is now clarifying that what they hope will be completed in March is the investigation: that is, the gathering of the facts, through interviews and other research. It is unrealistic for us to expect to see some type of document about the findings in March.

I think there will be several more steps before any report is released. I have been told there will still be a Recommendations Panel assembled to go over the initial report from the IHART team. It's all still fuzzy to me, how this is supposed to work, but I just wanted to prepare those of us waiting: I don't think anyone of us will be seeing any sort of a Statement of Findings next month.

Keep your seat belts fastened. This is still a long and bumpy ride.

Okay, my head is spinning ...

Why, on this page of PII's website, on the page with photos of their staff, does it say, in small print, "All investigators fully vetted by Professional Investigators International and by the Independent Historical Abuse Review Team." ??? Which of course is IHART?

http://www.teampii.com/our-team/

I had been led to believe that PII was already in existence before Pat Hendrix found them and hired them to investigate Panama. Now I am not sure.

Is PII another creation of Pat Hendrix, just like IHART is?

And Pat Hendrix is paid by NTM, and of course all payments and expenses going out to PII and other investigators are also paid by NTM.

I feel a little sick to my stomach.

What is happening????

SOUNDS LIKE ONE HAPPY FAMILY TO ME. EMPHASIS MINE. Full stop.

"I am raising money to help survivors of sexual violence. Be a part of the change! http://rainnmakers.rainn.org/Heather'sHope


I decided we better start our own help line.....here is my page on RAINN (Rape Abuse Incest National Network) I have also sent in my story to be a speaker with them. And there are links to US Congress members that support RAINN. Quite a few in Florida!

Anyway this really isn't an ad....just showing you what we can do on our own to in the meantime while we wait, wait, wait, wait.....