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I thought it was good I had sorta come to the same conclusions but couldn't state them as well.

I still have a lot of questions about God and where is He when things get really bad. But I am coming to the place that it OK to have questions and no answers. Actually I find the older I get the more questions I have but I don't panic when I have them.

Well said, Shary!

Well said.

I think God gives us alot of light
But not all.
I can wait to find out……..

Thank you Cynthia for sharing your heart and your story with us. You are appreciated.

The first time in my life that I felt I was going to be OK was on finishing the book The Sacredness of Questioning Everything, by David Dark. Would love to discuss it with you all.

Oh wow, from the age of five you had a pretty good idea of where you were heading.
At the age of five we were a "normal" family, then the road to Damascus experience happened and by the age of 10 we were in NTM. I remember having reservations about it all in boot camp, because much of the adult behaviour was childish and irrational.
Then we went to language school and I remember telling my father that I didn't want to be a Christian anymore and he told me I had to stay in my room till I changed my mind. In some respects that was probably the turning point, because I knew I had no option but to put in a minimal religious effort just to survive.
Looking back, I was probably always an Agnostic, it just took a long time to get to the stage of feeling comfortable enough to label myself as anything.

And despite all the upheaval you have the graciousness to say "If your religion works for you hats off to you", those are words I have never heard or will never hear from my family.

What we call ourselves, be it Atheist, Christian, Agnostic or something else, it is only a label. It is how we live our lives as members of a functioning society that truly define who or what we are and that is generally only known to close friends and/or whatever deity is out there.
Labels are cheap and disposable, actions be they good or evil defines who we really are.

One of the most helpful area David Dark talks about, is one day believing, one day not. And that's OK. A lot of pressure came off me at that point.