Got to page 181 before I had to go to bed, for what as I didn't sleep much. The resentment and the GUILT I felt for that resentment revisited me. We were always the black sheep among the missionaries, we didn't see these ABWE leaders who came to the field as "little gods" like the other missionaries seemed to. I so remember Russ and Nancy staying in our little 4 bedroom home with one bathroom and 4 children and acting like they were above us. On one of their visits we were preparing for a funeral for the father of one of our Sunday School boys, my son's best friend, but they took preeminence. Their meals and comfort were more important than my concern for that family. I was making food for the wake but had to take Nancy to the shops with me and make sure they were entertained properly. How I wish I was as strong then as I am now as I felt my grieving for that family had no place in my life while the "big shots" were on the field. Another thing that makes my skin crawl is when Dr. Kempton saw us at a restaurant and commented on how good looking our children were and how mannerly they were but then he went on about our girls being beautiful. At the time I thought nothing of it but now I wonder, "who would protect a pedophile," maybe another pedophile, just wondering, that's all as I have never heard that about Dr. Kempton. This is getting too long but one more thing, ABWE will come out of this being praised, mark my word. I am glad that they finally allowed Pii to do the job but the churches and missionaries will just keep with them. Kind of like when a pastor in Des Moines was stealing from the benevolent fund to keep his wife in a lifestyle she desired, "well don't you believe in forgiveness" was the excuse for him. He got back in the ministry and had choices of churches that wanted him, he is still pastor ini in Ohio. Like my mum always said about some people, "they will come out smelling like a rose." I could rant forever as old memories have come back to haunt me as I read the names of these people. I have a story about Nancy Hepworth worth telling but I do not need this victory for the bangladeshmksspeak girls to be about me. Fullstop.
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