So, I've been taking a church-vacation since Christmas. Kinda fun. What's cool is that it seems to have bought me into the status of "she's in the Lord's hands now.". Yes, I'd much rather have God in charge of my spiritual life. The Gentle Observer and Occasional Intervener . . .
Been thinking/reading a lot about human sexuality. Teaching deep revulsion for any inward/outward expressions of sexuality hasn't really done our mission communities any favors, has it? How about frank discussions during candidate training that go something like this:
In the next 30 years you may find yourself sexually attracted to any of the following:
1). Another missionary's wife or husband. This does happen in close knit communities, especially if there are unmet needs. Like if the husband takes on an even greater attitude of superiority and in-charge-ness, perhaps related to local culture of the nationals and maybe the general stupidity of male missionaries who like to rev each other up and feel manly since they dont have a truck driving job. Or the wife who has been taught to only go to the Bible for help, as interpreted by all the men of the centuries. So she knows to be submissive, and doesn't have the help of Oprah. Other people's spouses or that delectable new single missionary can look REAL good. Take some time off, get away for awhile, find help for your marriage. It's important.
2). You may find yourself attracted to a child. This is anyone under 18. This is never the fault of the child. We want you to take a break from missionary life at this point. It is incompatible with our mission. You are to arrange time off and confront this issue with a sexual counselor (not just a seminar-trained church counselor, but a recognized, published, credentialed therapist).
3). Pornography, and other less church inspired sexual longings can bring internal conflict and external consequences. Be careful and confront your issues . . .
4). We are interested in you as a whole person, and recognize that we are all sexual beings. We ask that you have alternate available plans for a financial life if you are unable to stay on the mission field. We don't want to be your only option. Please keep up with any professional credentialing and a support team of friends at home (not just financial supporters.). Keep going back to a safe and loving familiar community when you are on furlough. Don't try to be a church leader wherever you go. Accept help, stay humble.
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