i hear u. i guess i really didnt fit in w the authority but i think i meshed w the other mks. little to well cuz on two diff acounts i was invited to not return! grounded to my dorm room for weeks at a time and paddled. thought it was just cuz we wern w ntm. maybe or mabey not. the poin is that i thought that i had givn all this to god. turns out it camr up alot while doing my 4th step w my sponser! found out that i was prayd for for a long time cuz you guys thought i got a raw deel and i neede prayer. thank you you know who you are. im sorry for our childhood taken from us and ive been retuning the favor lately. ive sufferd sexuall abuse by more than one time on nuurous times way before i ended up in brasil. want to say that its nothing you did to deserve this! from experience a sorry doesnt make you feel betr and sure dont erase the fact of the hurt that was done! i do counseling head shrinking and support groups to deal w my hurt hang ups and habits. pray pray pray! i talk through most my probs today. well just gettn my voice in feel free to message me and ill do what i can to help ill b back talk more wen my head stops spinning from thiss all. this has helpd me rea;lze that im not unque at all and that there are others that i can get from and share experience strengths and hopes with. god bless and i love you all out there in mk land sorry bout the spelling im fluit in two languges and cant spell either! well HERE I AM