Fanda is a town and the name of an NTM (now Ethnos360) boarding school in Senegal, Africa.

Many crimes against children were perpetrated by NTM personnel in Fanda and around the world.

Fanda Eagles was started in 2009 by Kari and Bonnie, two Fanda boarding school alumni who decided it was time to speak up for justice.

Many other NTM alumni from Fanda and other boarding schools around the world have also collectively agreed to speak.


May, 2017

New Tribes Mission was founded in 1942. The first missionaries went to Bolivia, S.A. in that same year, taking their children with them. In 1952, NTM opened a boarding school at Tambo, Bolivia, and that is where the first known cases of sexual abuse occurred, reports of high school girls being molested and raped.
Through the decades after that, child abuse occurred in a number of places where NTM missionaries worked, to varying degrees. Some of the things that are now understood to be potentially very damaging to children were common and accepted. Among these would be the normalized practice of placing children as young as five in boarding schools, and corporal punishment that today would be considered brutal. Children were also emotionally abused, bullied, and were frequently manipulated and controlled by what amounted to spiritual abuse.
In addition, there were many cases of sexual abuse of children, which were usually mishandled by mission leaders. We now know of incidents of incest, sexual abuse by school staff or other non-family missionaries, abuse by older children, as well as abuse by nationals. All too often, if sexual abuse was revealed to mission leaders, the response was not something that was helpful and healing to the victim. Families were sent back to their home countries, or offending personnel were re-located, or the abuse was discounted or minimized. It is not surprising that in the NTM environment, much abuse simply went unreported. Some of those cases have only come to light decades later, and many no doubt remain unknown.
Some of the most disturbing situations have involved boarding school staff (often “dorm fathers”) who preyed on the children entrusted to their care, sometimes for an extensive period of time, in most cases victimizing multiple MKs (missionary kids). There were MK school staff members who took corrective punishment to sadistic extremes, thereby causing great physical and emotional harm to their students.
In 2009, several young adults who had been students at NTM’s MK school in Fanda, **Senegal** confronted the leaders at NTM-USA’s headquarters in Sanford, Florida about sexual abuse they had endured at their school. Eventually, NTM agreed to use GRACE (Godly Response to Abuse in the Christian Environment) to investigate child abuse at the Fanda school. In August, 2010, GRACE released a 67-page report on abuse, and the failed response of NTM to the attempted reporting of that abuse. The report recommended consequences to the abusers and the leaders who failed to respond appropriately. GRACE’s report revealed that 22-27 MKs were sexually abused at Fanda, and more than 35 were physically and emotionally abused. Around ten staff members were named in the report as abusers; four of them were sexual abusers. There were also several mission leaders — in Senegal and in the US — who were named as contributing to the problem because of their poor response. Read the report at the below link.

One of the things that was revealed in the Fanda report was that Scott Ross, who became house counsel for NTM in 2002, “inherited a backlog of some 80 or 90 child abuse allegations worldwide. A breakdown of those allegations are as follows: child abuse in school setting (30 cases); child on child abuse (21 cases); child abuse within family (13 cases); other (19 cases)”. For many who read the Fanda report, this was the first time they comprehended the magnitude of child abuse in the mission. Only a few people at the Sanford headquarters would have been aware of the documents and reports in the files there, never seen by the average member of the organization.

In 2009, MKs from the Fanda school had established a website which they named Fanda Eagles, after their school’s soccer team name.  It was initially envisioned as a means of communication among Fanda alumni, but as awareness of the GRACE investigation began to spread, adult MKs from other fields and other interested people joined the on line discussion in the website’s forums.

MKs from other NTM boarding schools started sharing their stories, and it soon became apparent that Fanda was not the only school where appalling abuse warranted investigation.

In November, 2010, an on line petition with 528 signatures was submitted to NTM. The purpose of the petition was to insist that New Tribes Mission employ an outside agency to conduct additional investigations of child sexual and physical abuse allegations at NTM facilities. NTM refused to use GRACE for any further investigations. Instead, they announced that a woman named Pat Hendrix had been hired by NTM as an “independent coordinator” who would administer investigations into past child abuse in NTM. It was announced that Pat’s independent team would be called IHART: Independent Historical Abuse Review team. Many people had the mistaken impression that IHART was an independent investigative firm. In reality, IHART did not exist until Pat Hendrix, under contract with NTM, created it.
To date, IHART has completed three investigations into abuse at NTM boarding schools. Following is a summary of each.

**East Brazil** – This investigation was begun in May, 2011, and concluded in April, 2014. A final report was not made public, but through information shared by survivors, we know that IHART received reports of abuse at the Vianopolis school dating from 1983 to 1998. IHART identified four sexual abusers and one physical and emotional abuser. Recommendations were made that these abusers, none of whom were still mission members, be retroactively dismissed from the organization. In addition, two mission leaders from East Brazil were named as bearing some responsibility for their “actions and inactions”. MKs and their supporters were very disappointed in the way this investigation was concluded: a lack of public acknowledgement of the pain caused to an unspecified number of abuse victims, and a lack of accountability on the part of the mission. There was no way to verify any follow-through on the mild consequences supposedly given to offenders.

**Panama** – This investigation was begun in January, 2012, and was concluded with IHART’s public posting of a Summary Report in October, 2016. Several significant changes or shifts occurred between the initiation of this investigation and its conclusion. An investigative company called Professional Investigators International (Pii) was initially appointed by Pat Hendrix to undertake the investigative work. In November 2014, NTM replaced Pat Hendrix with an attorney named Theresa Sidebotham, making her the new coordinator of IHART. It was at this time that it was clarified that IHART was in reality a “process of NTM”, and had never been an independent firm as some had understood. Pii was instructed to send all the information they had gathered to Theresa, and then they were terminated.
Theresa Sidebotham claimed that the investigation and report already finished and submitted by Pii was incomplete, because it failed to reflect leadership culpability. There was a long delay in finishing up the investigation and report, while the MKs and their supporters waited, until the Summary Report was released in late 2016, almost two years after Ms Sidebotham’s takeover of IHART.

The Panama report can be read here.
According to the report, IHART received
allegations of abuse at the Panama MK school from 1977 to 1994. The report defended the separation of children from their parents, and corporal punishment as being acceptable and accepted during that time frame. As to the other allegations and findings, IHART reported that there were 103 credible allegations that were investigated. Pii investigated 57 allegations of physical abuse, 40 allegations of sexual abuse, and 8 separate allegations of emotional abuse. 63 of the allegations rose to the level of “preponderance of the evidence”. Most of those involved severe physical abuse, but five were sexual abuse. Pii found ten people to be offenders. IHART also found nine mission leaders to be culpable to varying degrees.
According to the report, most offenders were no longer members of the organization, but their permanent records were amended to be “dismissed”. An unspecified number were still members, and were reportedly dismissed from the mission. Others were reprimanded. No names of any offenders were revealed. This decision not to name offenders has been defended by Ms Sidebotham, because “the IHART process is not a legal action or part of the criminal justice system”. The failure to expose people who abused children in horrendous ways does not help to bring closure or healing to many abuse survivors, nor does the lack of proof that any of the recommended consequences were ever followed through.

**Bolivia** – IHART opened this investigation at the beginning of 2012, and their Summary Report was posted on their website four years later, in December, 2016. The report can be read here.

The report on abuse at NTM’s boarding school at Tambo, Bolivia follows the same format – and even much of the wording – as the Panama report. The significant facts that can be gleaned from the report include these: child abuse reported to IHART dated from 1952 to 2000. The IHART team interviewed 245 MKs, and received 63 allegations of physical abuse, 50 of emotional abuse, and 73 of sexual abuse. Out of these, the allegations for which the team reached a finding by a “preponderance of the evidence” were 41 of physical abuse, 37 of emotional abuse, and 50 of sexual abuse.
31 individuals were found to have committed some level of misconduct. 11 of those were already deceased at the time of the investigation. 13 alleged offenders were found to have committed sexual abuse. Five NTM leaders were found culpable of failure to protect the safety of children.
As in the case of the Panama offenders, the IHART report failed to name any of those who were found to have abused children at Tambo. And again, there has been no way to follow through to see who was dismissed from NTM, or anyone who had any other consequences.
In addition to the four NTM boarding schools investigated, it is known that several other individual missionaries (or former missionaries) have been investigated. A then-current NTM missionary named Gary Earl was investigated for physical and sexual abuse in **Papua New Guinea**. One of the survivors of his abuse wrote a number of posts on Fanda Eagles, detailing her journey in seeking justice. (See This is My Story about Gary Earl.)
Many instances of child abuse in Papua New Guinea were reported by people who posted on the
Fanda Eagles Forums. These posts can still be read there.
In the **Philippines**, a pedophile “dorm father” went undetected for many years, while abusing at least a dozen children. Some of this abuse reportedly included rape and sodomy. A disturbing interview with this former NTM missionary can be viewed here.

In a September, 2011 update, Pat Hendrix named other schools where abuse had been reported. She wrote that IHART had received NTM’s files on historic child abuse cases in Papua New Guinea, Indonesia, Mexico, and Venezuela.

At least three lawsuits were filed in 2011 and 2012 by individual MK abuse survivors, accusing NTM of negligence. Those suits were eventually settled, for unknown amounts of money. Additionally, other MKs received financial settlements from NTM through mediation processes.
NTM has also paid counseling expenses for a significant number of MK abuse survivors who have applied for this financial help. The needs and struggles among NTM’s MK abuse survivors are staggering. In addition to the widespread abuse in boarding school, many MKs suffered abuse at the hands of their own family members or other perpetrators. When unhealthy situations became known by mission leaders, they were not prepared to deal with these situations in appropriate ways, which often exacerbated the pain caused to victims, instead of helping them.
Throughout the world today, there are thousands of adults whose parents were (or still are) missionaries serving in New Tribes Mission (now rebranded as Ethnos360). Many of these MKs carry with them the devastating effects of their childhood. The mission culture taught adults to harshly discipline children, and it also taught them that in order to serve God, they must place their own children in isolated boarding schools staffed by under-qualified or unqualified missionaries who had inadequate preparation, supervision and accountability. Only a fraction of the MK abuse survivors of NTM have participated in the abuse investigations named above. Many refuse to ever trust NTM with the nightmarish stories of their destructive childhoods. Some are no longer living, and of those, some have chosen to end their own lives.

63 Responses to About

  1. More Than Disgusted says:

    @Anne Fillmore
    Chris Horgan’s post was one of the most hopeful ones because of his repentance.
    But the people he mentioned have been on our hearts since then!
    We enter into your pain as much as we can and loathe what happened to you.
    We are dealing with our own abuse at the hands of NTM leaders. It was very recent, even though they maintain that it doesn’t happen any longer. We know of other recent cases, also.
    We will continue to pray for you and for your healing.
    Here’s a virtual, but heartfelt hug!

  2. Anne Fillmore says:

    I was one of the people Chris Horgon talked about. After my experience with New Tribes Mission, I attempted suicide, which a five year depression followed. My faith is in the toilet to this very day. I left New Tribes Mission in 1984 with a very heavy heart. I dream(nightmares mostly) on a regular basis all these years later.

  3. Anne Fillmore says:

    @Chris Horgan
    I would love to here from you.

  4. MK sheri says:

    I thought that maybe Red Barren had some type of psychological disorder. I sent a few of RBs posts to a psychologist I know and asked him what he thought. This is a part of his response to me.

    My guess? Typos are too funny to be real. Maybe the author is intentionally trying to say things and uses that problem to keep identity masked


    Shadowspring I don1t know how to communicate very well on the internet. My email is jvbartlett54@yahoo.com.

  6. shadowspring says:

    Is it possible that you could join the forums and private message me? Shadowspring

  7. Shary Hauber says:

    In reading though some of Red Barren’s site I think that is what he actually believes. He is a lot like many of the people in our churches. “O sure it happened, too bad, forget it.” This attitude is what made NTM cover up everything and is still evident now.

    The comparison of abuse and people going to hell is the same story all over. It is not one or the other. Both are dealing with sin in the individual. One is a friend so their sin can be ignored, the other a heathen so they must be told to repent or go to hell. This kind of thinking seem to ignore that Jesus said “causing a child to stumble is worse than suicide.” Matthew 18:6

    We have to accept that there are people like Red Barren who for many different reasons can not accept the truth. They will not change very sad. The inner conflict must be very difficult, trying to always convince yourself that sin is not sin.

  8. MyThoughts says:

    @Denise Amstutz K. lol, I have thought the same thing about Red Barren–For instance, on this (http://goo.gl/hefr) post of his, he spells David’s name right, then 3 sentences later, he spells it David Abbutt, which I have a hard time believing is a typo.

    Does he truly believe what he types, or is he just trying to stir up the pot?

    Just a thought.

  9. Denise Amstutz K. says:


    I don’t know about Observer, but I really cannot wrap my head around what kind of person Red Barren is. I am starting to think that he is not a NTM supporter at all, maybe just the opposite, maybe he is someone who just wants to make NTM beliefs and NTM supporters look bad.

  10. Wondering says:

    Is “Observer” a Hoax, as well as “Red Barren”?

  11. Broken says:

    Wow Observer..you are on a mission to “incite and enrage” aren’t you??!! You try being raped and beaten or have it happen to your child and see how you feel. You appear to have more anger than anybody here. What I see on this page is hurt, broken people trying to heal and find a way out and in you I see EVIL!

  12. jdg says:

    In addition, there are bona fides ALL OVER THE PLACE here if you care to look. I know no one involved in person. And yet, frankly, I would say I’m convinced of, conservatively, 75% of what I’ve read here–by which I mean I would stake something on it. There are letters reprinted here, there is the GRACE report, and there is the response of NTM. Clearly something went down.

  13. jdg says:

    Observer, you’re bloody right you wouldn’t want your unsaved friends to see this — because if *any* of this is true, it’s a sordid tale of “Christians” dragging the powerless into and through the depths of hell — that was what you meant, right?

    OH NO, you meant that because some people were accusing each other of things that in time we will find out aren’t true and that besmirches the name of Christ?

    Well first off, as Bonnie mentioned, no one made any claims about the religious affiliation of this web page. Whereas in the designation NTM, there is a specific and deliberate association with a “mission” — that of saving the lost. Under that guise, evil was perpetrated, covered up, and allowed to fester and be perpetrated again.

    But if your unsaved friends come around, make sure they steer clear of the false allegations.

  14. Bonnie says:

    You said, “The truth will come out – someday – and many of you will hang your heads is shame for the things you have said on this “Christian blog”. I would be so thoroughly ashamed to have one of my secular friends see this – not because of what happened but because of the vindictiveness of so many comments.”
    1. Funny thing about that… the truth is already out.
    2. This is a “Christian blog”? Not sure where you get that from. Please explain what you mean by that, or point out where you have seen this on our blog.
    3. All of NTM and their supporters should be ashamed if their friends see this blog (saved or not.). This truth is a sick thing to see, and to still be a part of NTM, or to be loudly and viciously supporting them, that should make you ashamed.

  15. Observer says:

    Hey – I think this whole thing needs to go to court. Those who did wrong will be punished as they should be – some should not be roaming the streets in their communities – and those whose names have been smeared by many of you will get their names and reputations back. Still nobody is asking for verification on lots of these allegations. I cannot believe that so many of your still park yourselves here without asking those vital questions. And I’m sure this post will be deleted as they usually are. The truth will come out – someday – and many of you will hang your heads is shame for the things you have said on this “Christian blog”. I would be so thoroughly ashamed to have one of my secular friends see this – not because of what happened but because of the vindictiveness of so many comments.

  16. Mar says:

    Acquainted first hand with spiritual abuse … standing with you and for you

  17. Elizabeth says:

    I just read the article in World and most of the GRACE report and now your precious and painful stories. I could not keep silent in the face of what has happened to you. I understand personally verbal, emotional and spiritual (legalism) abuse and have sat as a lay counselor at my church to hear many stories like yours and even worse. My heart weeps as I know Jesus does for all of this. Thank you for your courage to tell your stories and reach out for help and to help others.
    I am praying for all involved and especialy NTM to respond with brokeness and repentance of the Psalm 51 kind.
    Loving you all in prayer.

  18. I like what you said about healing and going on to lead a real, full and vibrant life, instead of a half-life. That is my philosophy, as well. That’s why I started “SurvivorsCanThrive”–because I think it is our right to thrive, not merely survive.

    Thanks so much for sharing this with us through THE BLOG CARNIVAL AGAINST CHILD ABUSE. I hope you join us again with another post. I try to organize the carnival each month and details are always at my blog. Blessings to you.

  19. I am not a Missionary kid. I am an incest survivor. My parents only went to church for weddings and funerals. As an adult who is still affected by some of my incest issues today, I can sympathize with any adult who was abused as a child. I know it is not easy to “just get over it” as one commenter suggested. In my own experience, usually when someone gets angry and tells me that, it is because they have their own unresolved issues that they are in denial of or they are not an abuse survivor and have no idea about how hard the struggle is. For me, forgiveness did not come until I had worked through and released most of my rage at my abusers.

    I honor your journey as I honor my own as an adult survivor of abuse. Thank you for sharing this post with the Blog Carnival Against Child Abuse.

  20. Gene Long says:

    To contact others who have posted, I would suggest emailing the Fanda Eagles and asking them to forward your note to the other party. That will allow you more privacy and give you more security than posting your own email address on the blog.


  21. JERRY BARTLETT says:

    my command of the english language is not adequate to express my feelings of compassion and sadness for those of you who suffered theese wrongs. my admiration for your courage and perseverance cannot be overstated. my ignorance of the protocol for a blog is overwhelming. shadowspirit is looking for someone who was at pqq. i was there from 1960 until 1971.

  22. shadowspring says:

    @Gene Long
    Thanks for the acknowledgement, Gene. It is appreciated. =)

  23. Diane Mikitson says:

    Chris Horgan made a comment on January 17, 2010 Under the ABOUT section.
    Chris, You are someone I respect. I don’t know you but you you were a NTM leader, a committee member and you show a real example of repentance. You left NTM in 1999 and tried to find as many people as you could to apologize to them for the controlling and abusive style of leadership. What an example of someone who “gets it” and knows what freedom Christ brings when someone owes up to sin and seeks out ways to apologize.

    Just today we are again seeing on this blog comments that someone denies any allegations made by Fanda victims. The other day we saw something from a pastor of one of the terminated leaders basically saying that the Fanda victims are slandering this good and godly man’s character. Why are these individuals not able to owe up to any sin? I believe it is as GRACE said – they don’t comprehend the cross. It actually makes me both angry and sad that they don’t know the freedom found in being forgiven = not just forgiven when they first believed, but today.

    Christ had the sternest admonition to the phonies, those who make every effort to look good but don’t run to the Forgiver.
    Matthew 23:27Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of dead men’s bones and everything unclean.

  24. FrmrNTer says:

    My first post was today even though I have been reading the website with interest, and with sorrow for the victims of the abuse, for some time.

    I was with NTM during most of the time period in question and of course in the dark about the abuse like so many. I want to express my heartfelt and spirit felt appreciation for all of you who have come forth despite the pain to tell your stories, in order to remove the darkness covering the abuse.

    Thank you for being a conduit of information, too. I hope that either through this site or NTM we will learn of the actions taken in fact by NTM based on the GRACE report. I’m rather disappointed that information is trickling out through NTM. A report doesn’t guarrantee accountability, and from the history of this situation, it certainly demands both accountability and transparency.

  25. Benjamin Quilliam says:

    I would suggest you ask the admins to start a forum in the discussion boards for the WEC school. We will try to publicise it. If there is a discussion started already, other visitors to the site might realise theirs was not an isolated case and can contribute evidence.

    I would suggest probably not including names, but maybe include general information that helps other potential victims from the WEC school to identify what you’re talking about.

  26. Bridgette says:

    I am also a NTM MK I attended a WEC school in West Africa. After reading the Grace report I am horrified at the horrible things that were done to children at the Fanda school. I believe there was abuse going on at the WEC school I attended as well, if anyone has information please reply. I am not sure I should say the name in the event that I would be accused of slander.

    To all the survivors of the Fanda scandal I hold you in my thoughts and prayers.

  27. Michael McKenney says:

    Hi Gene Long,

    Not sure if you remember me and Donna. Anyway, we spent 3 years in Senegal (1980-1983). Our 2 boys lived in Fanda at the MK School. While we never personally knew of or experienced sexual abuse during our time there, we are vitally interested in all that’s been said, documented, and investigated.

    There are some things that at the time were pretty much a mystery to us while serving in Senegal, especially attitudes and tendencies, but now they have become crystal clear in the light of all the information on this site, the forums, etc. Looking back, the overall general attitude/relationship between leadership and missionaries left much to be desired. In hindsight it is obvious that underneath even that chasm between leadership and missionaries, there apparently was something far more sinister festering, and has now come to light.

    I just read the Final Report by Grace. Donna and I know personally many of those mentioned in that report, and our hearts are broken. What a shame that these things happen, yet even more tragic that they are ignored or covered up for “the sake of the ministry.”

    I do want to thank all of you who have been brave enough to share your tragic experiences and thank you for your courage. We are grateful that the Lord has evidently led you in this work. The last days truly are upon us, and times are definitely waxing worse and worse. I know the Lord’s heart must be in much pain, yet He also is able to bring comfort and heal all the hearts that have been wounded. Perhaps these very painful stories and testimonies that have been shared will help to protect future MKs and bring a certain amount of awareness to the hearts of missionaries throughout the world.

    There have been countless numbers of parents who were flat out deceived; they had trusted the most precious thing they had, their children, to others, never imagining that the whole subject of child/sexual abuse could be an issue in the setting of a school for MKs that was run by fellow believers/missionaries. It was assumed that these dorm parents would love and protect the MKs entrusted to their care; how horrible to find out that just the opposite occurred.

  28. Gene Long says:

    By the way, guess what my real name is!

  29. Gene Long says:

    Dave Martin doesn’t tell us what he means when he says he is “successful.” That is a regrettable omission, since it leaves open the very real possibility that he is “successful” in ways that are not pleasing to the Lord. Just saying.

    I admire the people who started this website, and all those who have contributed to it. I guess I don’t share Dave Martin’s opinion that they are losers. It strikes me that they are brave, honest and exceptionally kind people. The word “successful” comes to mind.

  30. Dave Martin says:

    shadowspirit. now you get to calling people names. And now you are an expert on me. I never said you were weak. U cannot change the past. Right now you are letting it beat you. The people that abused you are still in control becuase you let them in your head. One last thing. THe individuals that abused us have suffered plenty in their lives and some have died of diseases. What goes around comes around.

  31. shadowspring says:

    Dave Martin is himself abusive- telling victims to just “get over it”, implying that the wounds they have and the pain they feel are there because they are too weak, and if they were better people they would just leave the past behind and be successful *like him*.

    Well, if God is going to take care of everything, then Dave better watch his back, because he has spoken arrogantly to God’s precious flock, the ones abandoned by the pastors and shoved around by fat sheep like him. Ezekiel 34

    Even the final jibe, implying that those who use pseudonyms are inferior to Dave Martin- his real name!- just highlights his arrogance and willful ignorance. Being a victim of abuse is shameful exactly because people like him shame victims!

    I use a pseudonym to protect my husband’s anonymity. My husband is not weak, but wounded. He shows his strength by being willing to stop pretending it was no big deal and get the help he needs! I do not believe Dave’s protests that he was abused and it was no big deal. If that were true, he would show compassion here, not arrogance.

  32. Dave Martin says:

    By the way Dave martin is my real name.

  33. Dave Martin says:

    Wow. Please do not tell me that I did not get over it. I am very successful in my life. I know many other folks that were abused that do not hang on to the past. The truth should be told but will that help you guys cope? I will not enter this site anymore. U guys have fun.

    I do not hold it against my parents. I am proud of their contributions and sacrifice many missionaries have no clue of.

  34. Shary Hauber says:

    David in the guestbook section you stated you DID hold it against your parents, now here you are saying get over it. What do you mean? You haven’t gotten over it. Why because it is not something you get over. You may think everything is OK but that is because you are not facing reality. We form thought patterns, emotions, evaluations of people when we are children.

    I keep finding out the lies I believe about life, others, and myself even now. I am not to blame for the things that happened to me. I am not an evil person,yes I need Christ’s forgiveness for my sins, but the things I did as a child will not automatically condemn me to hell or you. Our childhood emotions will always be with us if we acknowledge them or not. I am a happy person because I learned to know the lies and start telling myself the truth.

    I am not from Fanda but another missionary boarding school in another mission. But don’t you condemn the Fanda MKs for asking for the truth to be told. They are not evil or wishing evil on anyone. They are seeking to stop child abuse because some of the abusers are still out there abusing children. They are not a bunch of liberal democrats. They are strong courageous people who were not afraid to take on a whole mission. Like someone else said if you don’t want to help or be helped just keep quiet.

  35. Naomi Cleaves says:

    @Dave Martin
    God loves justice. It is our RESPONCIBILITY to speak out and do our bit to prevent these things from happening to more children. I never expected any support for speaking out but I have got a lot, so I will try not to let your comments bother or sadden me too much. And no one “gets over” child abuse. It makes you who you are and affects decisions you make, mostly in a negative way, even if you don’t see it. You could be using coping mechanisms you developed during the abuse instead of making positive decision. I have certainly found this in my life. I thought it had simply made me a stronger person for a long time.

  36. kamara says:

    “God keeps the books, and he will take care of things.”
    Really? Well silly us, having all those courtrooms, judges, police officers, laws, prisons etc…If god keeps the books and will take care of things I guess we’ve been wasting our time with all that – lets let everyone do whatever they want criminally and just ignore it,K?
    I’m so bloody sick and tired of people and organizations abusing people groups and individuals and telling them to bend over and take the shaft because “God keeps the books, and he will take care of things.”

  37. Stephen says:

    @Dave Martin

    Dave, while you might be right that mankind will always disappoint and the God will judge in the hereafter, we, at least the Christians here, are also called to be Christ to the lessers who are unable to protect themselves, and by that requirement, we should speak out and make a difference in THIS world so that other who have been through what you and others have endured might not have to be subject to those same abuses.

    In other words, being a Christian in a fallen world does not mean giving up. It means the opposite. It means showing that fallen world the light and justice that the Kingdom of God promises through Christ, whether or not the sin and failure of His standard comes in the service of what people think God wants or not.

    Additionally, if you are going to take a contrary position, it’s generally good to present oneself as well as possible, meaning not making broad generalizations and paying attention to standard grammar and spelling conventions. Otherwise, it can make one look a bit like someone who doesn’t feel that those on the board are worth the effort to type out “you” rather than “U”, and that makes it unlikely to gain any sympathy.

  38. justme says:

    @Dave Martin
    Dave M. To each their own. I Love the very same people you are insulting by replying like that..Do not visit this website unless you are supportive. I am happy you got over it. You are my hero. Now, please leave your mean comments to yourself in the future.

  39. Dave Martin says:

    the problem is you put too much faith in man. And guess what no mater were you go you will be disapointed. I have learned that God keeps the books. And he will take care of things.

  40. Dave Martin says:

    I am a MK also lived over seas for 17 years. was raised in a Mission school. There was abuse to me and my brother. But people get over it. U sound like abunch of liberal democrats. Every one is looking for an excuse of why ther losers.

  41. Anon says:

    @Chris Pritchard
    Chris, I think it is important to clarify the past relationship between the NTM and WEC missions. I assume you must be referring to school years spent at the original mission school begun in Ziguinchor, where your parents worked as WEC missionaries. It is true that NTM and WEC ran a collaborative school in the 70’s but it did not last long. I remember being told by the adults at Fanda that NTM separated from this collaboration because WEC allowed “charismatics” (is this still a word in the Christian church?). Senegal, was then saddled with two missionary boarding schools within a 25 km. radius, despite a national protestant population that still remains below 2% of the country. The important point, in my opinion, is that a co-managed, nondenominational school has more potential for providing a balanced and positive education experience. The issues raised on this blog began after NTM became an autonomous entity as a school. If a person accepts that mission organizations should run boarding schools, and if continued existence is taken as a positive indicator, then the fact that the WEC school still remains might suggest that they have done a better job of it. Your parents chose to send you to the WEC school after the split, if I remember correctly, which may have been fortunate for your continued positive memories.

  42. shadowspring says:

    @Chris Pritchard
    @Chris Pritchard

    I am not sure what you hope to accomplish by your statement. At best it seems callous and disrespectful to me. If you have read here, you have read many statements from hurting people who suffered abuse at the hands of teachers/dorm parents of NTM boarding schools, and statements from others devastated by the abandonment of boarding school and the theology that supported that system. Your posting here about how great you feel about your life and your NTM experience is rubbing salt in other people’s wounds.

    Typical of NTM brand of fundamental evangelical Christians to be more concerned with reputation than the hearts of the wounded. While your statement may be true (or you may simply still be in denial) posting it here is like going to a web site dedicated to adults abused by priests as children and telling all about how awesome you found your experience as an altar boy.

  43. Chris Pritchard says:

    I read these comments with interest as I was an MK at Fanada for many years when it was in its infancy.I was well disciplined on many occasions but that was because I needed to be.I have to credit NTM for a solid up bringing otherwise I wouldn’t be where I am now. I am now a sucessful systems engineer having worked all around the world for the last 15 years sometimes exposed to tough situations.NTM ,without knowing it,taught me how to manage risk,persevere and make choices for future years.Sure there were questionable methods in some cases and any individual exploitation I condemn but the majority of these missionaries where sincere folks.My email is christriedit@hotmail.com for anyone who wants to comment or touch base again.

  44. shadowspring says:

    Thanks for the encouragement, Highlander. I want to stay with him. Pray for me though, as so many, including our trauma therapist, are pushing me to separate. I just can’t abandon him again!

    I would only consider it temporarily IF he were to become physically intimidating/abusive again, which I do not expect. I think it only progressed that far before I insisted on getting help, well because I let it. I thought I was being forgiving and supportive, a good Christian wife, when in fact I was not being very helpful at all. I know better now.

    I found out that one of his three boarding schools was NTM. Does anyone here know anything about PQQ near Manaus, BZ in the 60s/70s? Any news is welcome, as long as it’s honest. Good/bad. I just want to know what I’m dealing with.

    All I know for sure about so far is the animal cruelty that the boys all indulged in- a sure sign of suppressed rage. But it could be rage at being abandoned and shut down emotionally in the name of God, along with all that shame, shame, shame piled on such young children at the Christian school. ( “Jesus loves me when I’m good…”)

    In other words, the abandonment of children to the care of ill-trained religious zealots as an accepted practice of the mission would be traumatic enough to create suppressed rage in children. I am not looking for fantastic stories of anything more hideous than business as usual for tribal missionaries. That is plenty bad enough.

  45. broken dreams says:

    I am not an MK or missionary but I did some training with them in 1999 they gave me my first bad experience. I wanted to join ntm but they told me I had to do “thier” Bible college after I had already been to a former Bible school! I was confused why I had to start over under “their” leadership. One day a group of leaders brought me to their office and emotionally abused me, they told me I would never become a missionary! They dropped me off at the airport and didn’t even say goodbye..The worst part was they wrote a bad letter behind my back to my paster about why I didn’t seem to fit in with there “community”. I had worked hard, studied hard, and did all the homework they told me to do but I felt something was not right. My paster knew nothing about their legalism so he believed them and my reputation ruined. It took me almost eight years to convince my church to send me overseas again. With a different organization of course..

  46. highlander says:

    Stay with him, support him. He needs to know that you are listening. He can survive. I have. It was a terrible ride thru therapy, but I made it. PTSD is awful, but it doesn’t last forever, it will subside. Stay with him.

  47. shadowspring says:

    My husband is an MK. I thank you for this website that helps me to understand him.

    I had no idea how upside-down “mission” work was, sacrificing the emotional/psychological/spiritual/physical well-being of children in order to save the natives.

    The God I serve, maker of heaven and earth, is not so short of resources that children must be abandoned and used in order for anyone to serve Him. I look at such “mission” work as a work of the flesh and an abomination, the sort that “profits nothing” a la I Corinthians 13.

    I don’t know what happened to my husband. He doesn’t remember. All I know is that he is depressed and abusive, alternating with the sweet, kind, gentle man I married. Please pray for him, and our marriages.

    We are both in trauma therapy now, as his trauma has become mine. Pray he will remember and be healed, and not just tormented forever.

    ps His parents were with UFM, now called Crossworld I think. I know for a fact that those in charge will not take seriously the damage they have done to children in the name of “mission”. Such hypocrisy.

  48. andy says:

    @Chris Horgan
    Hi Chris would love to get in contact sometime. Andy

  49. I am not of Fanda missionary school, but from Mamou Alliance Academy which operated in the mountains of Guinee, West Africa.

    I totally agree.. this and other like experiences are extremely UN-Christian,in fact,they are wickedness cloaked in ‘service to God”

  50. Chris Horgan says:

    I read this blog and know it is all true.

    It was my experience too.

    I left ntm in January 1992. Even today the shame I feel at allowing myself to be part of an organisation that is as controlling and abusive as ntm is haunts me.

    I was told the ntm leadership were the holy spirit in my life, amongst many other things.

    I was part of the leadership and a committee member in Australia. After I left I found as many people who suffered under ntm when I was a part of it, whether they were still members or not, and asked their forgiveness for my actions.

    I know of people that have ended their lives, and some that have tried. I know of people who are so damaged by their experience they cannot speak of it. I know of people who cannot return to their faith.

    This is not a christian experience.


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