Glad to see blogs like this speaking out and providing some accountability to churches and missionary organizations.

I am a pastor’s kid who was physically abused by my Calvary Chapel pastor step-dad.

My brother Paul, his blood son, says this pastor molested him in addition to the physical child abuse.

This stuff happens. It happens in secret behind the scenes and many won’t see it b/c abusers don’t invite people into the rooms while they are abusing children.

I encourage victims to speak out and hold the leaders of these organizations accountability. It can be very healthy to confront the abuse you’ve suffered and to try and raise awareness to the issue to help other kids avoid such a fate.

Thank you to the folks who started this blog. It is a growing trend and good to see!

@Completely Believable

We recently considered and investigated joining NTM, but while we were waiting for replies we did some research and were horrified to find out what was being covered up. We approached several reps about the historic abuse. One was honest and replied with integrity, the others didn’t want to discuss the matter.
Thank you for your honesty, it has confirmed that we made the right decision to find another place to serve.

Completely believable, spiritual and emotional abuse can be as soul-altering and scarring as sexual abuse (there should not be a hierarchy of abuse, in my opinion – and I have endured pretty much every kind of abuse). I suspect you will find good companionship on the Fanda Forums.

I just happened upon this site when looking for an address. There has never been an opportunity to express my hurt at the hands of NTM, until now. I was not sexually abused, but most definitely spiritually and emotionally abused. My husband and I went through training with NTM, served one year stateside, then left. During training, my infant son was held down in his crib in the nursery, being “taught” to be quiet. I was told repeatedly that I just needed to spank more and harder! I was young, naive, and timid. I did not know then that my son was autistic. I’m certain the abuse at NTM made him worse. We thought we had to endure the sick mind games in order to be missionaries! Oh! How I wish we had packed up and left after the first sickening incident! There were rumors that the board knew of the abuses, but there was no intervention, no help, no hope. We left many years ago, but whenever I think of NTM, I have a sick feeling in my stomach. Unfortunately, the report of sexual abuse is no surprise. My son is grown and doing fine, by God’s grace. I pray for those of you who suffered this heinous sexual abuse that God will heal you completely, that you will find the peace that passes understanding, the peace found in Christ alone. I ask God for a heart to pray for the abusers as well. Honestly, I am not there yet! But I know God is not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance. There are many blessed, godly, appropriate, effective missions agencies translating the scriptures and reaching the lost, doing God’s work God’s way. I’m not sure NTM should continue.

@Liars

Wow.
@Bonnie – I don’t know you, but these kind of charges must be super hard no matter how healed you are now. Hugs of support for you and kudos for your courage.

I have read a whole lot of this site and the GRACE report and I believe the voices on this site. Even if I did not believe you, the caustic nature of ‘Liars’ attack is enough reason to dismiss his/her words. Not simply because they are so mean, but because that level of intensity shows that Liar, most probably, actually has something else feeding their rage, other than belief that you all are lying.

I hope this encourages you at least somewhat, against the blows that (I think) these words would cause me if I were in your shoes.

@Liar
Many of the abused at Fanda did not know there were other victims until this website brought them together.
Others at Fanda could have had a wonderful experience and did not know about any of this.
You have ignored the documentation here.
You can’t evaluate (notice I am not saying “judge”) based on your own subjective experience alone.
There are facts here. And a report based on an investigation done by professionals.
I am more than disgusted with what you had to say.

I have never had any trouble believing all who have written their stories of abuse here. I am proud of the ones who started fandaeagles, they were and are very brave. I am of an older generation than these wonderful girls but I went to Mamou in the Guinea. Abuse was there all kinds sexual, physical, emotional, and then the spiritual abuse that threatened us with hell if we told. Liars you are the one with a problem. Have you been abused and are afraid to tell, if you tell you will find many who will support you. Abuse of children is so wide spread just look it up on the internet and you will see hundreds of stories of abuse. Fanda Eagles are telling the truth accept it.

Thanks again for starting this site it has helped many people.

@Liars Liars, I do not understand. You profess to feel compassion for those from other dorms and other countries who were hurt by abuse. And yet you attack people from your own school so viciously and personally. There is no doubt whatsoever about the fact that there was abuse at Fanda. This has been established by GRACE in its investigation, and the facts of the abuse have never at any time been disputed by New Tribes Mission or its leaders. I am amazed that the administrators of this website even cleared your comments to be published, as your words are very hurtful, ugly, and completely without merit. As a mother whose children were abused in another NTM dorm in another country, I cannot accept your professed compassion, because you show no compassion whatsoever to people who were terribly wounded in your own MK school.

Dear Liar,
You sincerely have problems that are obvious.
I’d be outraged at you if you weren’t so pathetic and complicit in inflicting pain on victims.
Read the documentation.
One of the perpetrators CONFESSED.
You are so out of place to address the victims like you did.
Start by asking yourself why you insist on calling 23 known victims liars.
Again, the abuse was evident at Fanda.
A known perpetrator CONFESSED!
We look forward to your repentant apology!

@Liars

@Liars
I didn’t see these comments from “Liars” till today. I tend to hang out in the Forum section.

Dear “Liars” I am sorry to read your comments. I am sorry you feel this way. I question your motives “Liars” in accusing victims at Fanda of lying. Have you read the lengthy report from Grace? Do you know that statistics say that less than one percent of people who report abuse are falsely making accusations? Do you think that many of these Fanda adult MK’s who now have children of their own have nothing better to do in life than make up lies about Fanda? Have you read the documents this blog mentioned when it first began? Notes between the executive committee and Senegal field committe?

Your comments are offensive to me. I know many of these Fanda MK’s and have the utmost respect for them having the courage to speak out and having enough sense of duty to try to prevent others from being abused. I am grateful for them starting this blog. I think the very fact that they posted your comments on here shows they have nothing to hide and are not lying.

To ALL attacking the girls and calling them liars
I am so sad to see all the hate aimed towards the victims here. You break my heart. You really are holding up the American culture of blaming the victim! You should all be ashamed.
Maybe you went there and the years you went there were good/ maybe the ugly truth is too horrible for you to swallow.
I have personally seen the struggles that my friend has had as an adult coming to terms with what had happened to her there.
To those judging and calling them LIARS- maybe you should take a look at yourself. It seems like you have lost any ‘Christian values’ that you got from there. Last time I knew, it was not your place to judge.

I am sorry to the many many of you from other dorms and other countries that have been hurt. It is so sad to hear. But what is worse is the ones from Fonda saying that in the little dorm they were sexually abused. WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS!??!? I need to stop reading your crap but I can’t. Its so sick and you must think you are so great getting all this attention. But what about the people you are accusing.? IT said my comments are “awaiting moderation”. Whatever that means. Well, my comments probably won’t be allowed on here cause for once someone is standing up for the accused. Please GET HELP, before more people get hurt by your ugly lies.

if This Had Been really happening You Would have seen it Kim. don’t let these people convince you. the fanda mks saying this are lying. I don’t know why anyone would make all this up but I was there and we would have known! ! if@Kim

I don’t Know Of anything Either And all these People saying they were abused Sexually just to get some attention make me real sick.
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I can’t speak for the other places other than Senegal. Some of you may be telling the truth. But us Eagles had it good and anyone talking about sexual abuse like this is very sick themselves. Its sad you have nothing better to do than make up stuff about great people like we had giving us an education.

THERE WAS NO “ABANDONING” that school put Me In a position to skip a grade once back in the states. did you really want to live in the jungles with all the social issues with the natives. If they had done that everyone would be yelling about that. Be grateful. you had people invested in your care. Its time someone started standing up against these lies! all I have read makes things look all bad and about 99%of it is lies.
@Vicky Tullman

and the Teachers were GREAT.

Liars :
Bonnie or whoever started this, you are a liar and now have all these people upset because you are mentally deranged. I was there too and we all had lots of fun. The kids had plenty of time with their parents, going home every five to six weeks. Duh, we had to go to school somewhere.You definitely need help but not for what you are claiming. Man, you sure have gone a long way to get attention. Please get help and recant your lies. You make me sick.

I agree with Vicky posted 5 May 17.41. As a christian, not just one who professes but seeks with Gods help to live accordingly, i would like to ask, where in the Bible is there the justification for leaving children in the care of others while parents go out at what they say is the Lord calling, surely this is against Scripture.However it is with great sorrow that i read some of the abuse reports, my heart goes out to all those who have suffered, they can forgive but they will never forget. This is the lowest form of humanity especially when it is brought under the umbrella of professing christians. What makes it worse is that there were those who knew about it in high places and did nothing, shame on them, how can they ever mention the Lords name again, who will believe them, they have betrayed the trust of all those innocent victims. May god bless all those who have suffered at their hands.

@Joy
Why do you want to go and disturb tribes people? What have they done you?
NTM almost wiped out four Amazon tribes with the diseases they brought.
Is that Gods work? Genocide? Google the Zo’e, the Ayoreo, the Yuqu and the Nukak if you don’t believe me. Host countries should stop these “missionaries” at their borders. Despite their intentions they are not doing Gods work.

Any mission that would require or ask a parent to “sub” out parenting vis a vis a boarding school that makes it convenient to abandon the children God gave you is inherently wrong. And until this basic premise is acknowledged there will NEVER be healing. @Wiki Kid

Having experienced similar at Oliguti, (thankfully not as severe) it could be that some people would just rather not discuss painful details of their feelings, partly to spare the listeners, and partly out of privacy. I know I did that when I was asked about it many years later by a very well-meaning friend. My parents moved on thankfully after they themselves were lied about. On the positive side, I learned valuable life lessons early about religious people who claim vehemently they have a spiritual relationship with a loving God…

an MK :
@highlander
Highlander. Numonohi was one thing but the reign of terror of 1967 at Oliguti was something else. I was present when one child of 8 was hit 120 times. That number of stricks was witnessed by 2 children. Those present in the room were around 11 children and 3 teachers who participated. It took me nearly 40 years to recover. Driving fear into children for control as if an 8 year old was that threatening to their survival is crazy. None of them faced charges.
Interestingly I have spoken to the person on the receiving end and it affect him less than those of us who had to witness it.

@an MK

It is sad that so many were crushed and ruined by the abuse. However, if it was not dealt with by the leadership of NTM, then the victims will have experienced rape twice.

@Raz
I think one of the most difficult parts of the past 6 months, for me, has been watching fellow New Tribers deny and wash away all of my Husband’s abuse of the children. By definition, New Tribes Mission is a cult- nothing more. We are healing, but the anger remains.

@Abused Widow

Dear Abused Widow,
My heart goes out to you!
NTM should do everything in their power to help you and your children.
Some of us are committed not to rest until we see justice end this mess.
You have so much courage to post here.
Thank you.

Shalom !

I was shocked to read this web-page while interested in serving missions in jungle. This relate to the theology that institutionalized and organized religion are promoting!!!

True Jesus YaHshua, YHWH is calling : “Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues…. Rev. 18:4

Here is a link about what you have experienced in false religions !!!
I can pray that true Jesus open your eyes, have compassions, and move on with HIM in peace! I have no words when I read what you went trough, it is demonic!!! True Jesus Love you and want you to trust HIM and HIM alone!
http://standingthegap.org/state_of_emergency.htm

Abused Widow, it is heartwrenching to hear of the ripple effect that sexual abuse has had on your family. Words fail me in any attempt to express to you how devastated I am to hear of the incredible destructiveness brought about by this man, who, as you say, is still walking free. Should anyone wonder who we are referring to, I will repost this link to an interview in which this monster openly confesses, at least in part, and then claims he has been pedophilia-free since 1993. If he thinks he has any of us fooled, he is sorely mistaken. http://www.fox43tv.com/dpps/news/local/former-missionary-admits-sexual-abuse_3825647